A.D.D. and depressed

Amy has taken care of me for the past few weeks at her apartment. I feel spoiled. I should really walk to class but it is nice and convenient to have a ride to class. Amy believes in me but do I believe in myself? I've tried but I need to try my best and hardest.

I'm proud of Jen for making the right decisions. =)

Chicago was nice, visited Sears Tower and many restaurants thanks to Mr. Lee. I'm glad I was able to pay him back (plane ticket).

So I got my 250 free business cards from Vistaprint.com

Not too bad. I did have to pay for shipping which was quoted at 21-30 days ...
I received them in about 1.5 weeks.


Ok MCAT. Lets say I got below the average...which I believe is 25 right? Well anyways I'm shocked and depressed.

Jen might get an '07 Scion tC! She wants Flint Mica and most likely auto because my parents will have the final say. I wouldn't mind a G35 =D but that's selfish of me. I shouldn't be materialistic. I must resist. I'm already spoiled. To have a new car and my own apartment is already nice. I just can't believe some students are able to drive M3s...

Food Manager course/exam is coming up. If I pass then I should make another business card haha. It'll be an 'official' business card for the new business opening soon. Hopefully it will be successful enough to support me through medical school. Thanks to my parents I would not have gotten this far.

Got a new camera. Old: Fujifilm FinePix Z1 to a Fujifilm FinePix Z2. Almost the same except for a few features. This time I'm taking extra care of it. No more scratches.

I know I rant alot but I feel like keeping thoughts and ranting to yourself and not expressing it is like poison to the body. By ranting on blogs I am able to release that poison and relieve the burdens I have carried on my shoulder. I've failed many of my friends and family. Yes MCAT was my first time but I had hoped it would be my last. I did not get President of MAPS, I had to drop CHM2211 and even now I'm doing only average in my classes. What the hell is wrong with me. I'm not smart. Really. Amy's got a secure backup. She already received a letter from Chicago Midwestern of Osteopathic Medicine and hasn't applied yet. If worse comes to worse I will have to tell them Ed is my cousin to get that extra boost in chance.

Personal Health class has changed my view on life and has helped me with my personal statement. I hope it turns out well.

I'll end my ranting here...